Developing myself one captured moment at a time.

I can remember the day my mom was telling me about the small pigs you get and how badly she wanted one, for what reason was beyond me but as I also had my weird stage (wigs) my mother supported and so I did the same. I decided I would get my mother a tea cup pig for her birthday and so after ordering the cutest one setting the flight and all plans reading all the information we could, thinking it was a scam but going forth any way just in case it was not. That time I was still with Willem and he stayed in springs that night we went to fetch her and we weren’t sure yet what we were fetching and if we were there for a reason but we waited and in a small wooden box was our little Arabella. She was moving all over the place in that box with her on my lap in the box and my fingers through the little wire holes provided she was sucking my fingers and biting it at times. When we arrived to his house I remember reading that the pigs are shy and that we should give them space as they need to...

I know I have not posted in a while I guess I have been trying to keep my mind away from all this. It is in a way an everyday struggle, I do think of him and us a lot and I do miss what we had and all we planned but my heart I’m not sure. I’m over him and I’m not? Maybe I am just taking it as it comes and not crying over him I’m done with crying really now. He called me the weekend to explain all that happened as he is smsing me almost every day like nothing happened and its hard cause one part of me wants to be in his life as a friend but the other part can’t do that. And it was hard to even tell him that I can’t and that we should break communication as it isn’t nice getting messages from him and it just reminds me of everything again. When I heard his voice, yeah I haven’t heard it since he was here that last weekend, having him now just say Elena instead of Babe or princess hearing him explain the situation saying it wasn’t me and I’m still the amazing person and all that wasn...

On the 17 th August I was lucky enough to do a fun portrait shoot of Delene. I heard of new places around Kriel and I really wanted and needed to do a few shoots to see what there is. I am really happy with how the pictures came out and all. We stared at a building that luckily for me they have not built yet, then off to the dam the rocks there was amazing with the grass then we went to the one lost little bit left of a park and water tower. It was nice catching up and being able to take your pictures. Hope you guys like the pics that follow! J

I saw my blog and life going a total different way; I didn’t think that a few days after we were 4 months together that I would end up saying we are broken up. I never for one second saw this coming and yet still now am I trying to wrap my head and thoughts around it all. I mean he was still here last weekend and we were fine, well so I think. I don’t even know where to start or what to say. I know I wish I could turn my mind off for a bit to stop trying to think of what happened and everything. So Thursday was the second day I haven’t heard from Willem and being me I over think and I got worried I mean who wouldn’t get worried when you don’t hear anything for 2 days and neither does anyone else, I knew this wasn’t like him we were friends for a few months and still while dating he has never been this quiet, his mother told me that he is just working and very busy but I had this gut feeling that there was something else I just could not put my finger on it. It’s funny how that n...

Feels like I have not blogged in years but yet it has been a week or so. Things have been up and down I am currently sitting with the flue trying to shake it off but it doesn’t want to know anything. I am so dead tiered its crazy. Today is my daddies birthday I just want to quickly say not really sure if he read the blog I showed him of father’s day but happy birthday daddy I hope you have a good day and I thank God every day and mostly days like today where we are blessed with another year with your presence to have you in my life thank you for all you have and do for me the smallest to the biggest things I appreciate them from the bottom of my heart and even though at times I don’t understand the things you do and say and you might work on my irritation levels I still love you and wouldn’t want any other father but YOU! Willem is back in Limpopo he left on Monday, Again I was faced with having to say goodbye to Willem. It gets a touchy subject when the time gets closer and we b...

I know I have not posted anything in a while and this is actually about 2 weekends late but time got the best of me in this one but here is the weekend of the 26 th -28 July I planned So I have this surprise weekend planned for Willem, I already planned it in June when he told me the final dates that he would be on leave and would be by me so then my mind got to thinking. When we were in Durban he surprised me with 2 nights in a hotel just to get away and it was really amazing to just chill outside and talk and talk and talk about anything and everything. It helps and I say all couples need that, being with family is great and I love it but Willem and I need our time where we just talk about things and also in a sense of getting to know each other more as well. So here is what I planned, Note: That when I plan something it has to be big and full on amazing!!! I looked at guest houses either in Witbank or Middleburg I wanted to either be at a place that was close to a place whe...

Well at least it is Thursday and tomorrow is half day Friday. As I sit here and think of things I am not sure what is going on any more or what way I need to go in anymore. Just when you think you are back and things might go good life throws you in a totally different direction in which you never thought that you would go into again. Today I got told that I was to move back to the place where I started working when I first arrived at the mine. I cannot tell you what I am thinking if it is good or what but I feel like on this mine I am a chess piece that they can move around until I am not longer needed and pushed out to another direction. Or taken out by something greater than myself and I sit on the side as I watch the rest of the game being played out without me. I am just tired of being moved around so much I want to be in a place where I get the chance to work my way up instead of work my way around. I mean in a way it is a good thing that people see my work and recommend...