Developing myself one captured moment at a time.

We all have been waiting for this week and now we wishing for Friday already. Guess that’s the way we are, we all want to rest after the year. I can not believe that next week its Christmas then we doing the countdown to 2014. All feels unreal. Why am I always so tiered? Need to either drink as much play as I can or eat a 2 -4 year old who had too much sugar after a good nap session. Growing old I guess?? I had a good weekend, even though it was hot as hell and shorter than my pinky if that makes sense. Friday Leroy and I started n our memory book reading our Together lets list gets a person excited to start and well this weekend we done some from the list still some more to go but all in good time!!! Saturday we were up and ready we left at about 9, we had a pit stop at Milly’s had a small lunch and ventured off for the last hour or so to Nelspruit. We first went to the mall. You could feel you were in Nelspruit with the heat in that area is crazy. I must say with the rain and al...

Friday but Time isn’t making it feel like it! Ok I have to admit time is flying faster every week and before we know it its Christmas then 2014 and the time off we waited for is done and we back at work just like that. All in one blink of an eye. Sad? I was watching GLEE where that actor died. Who played as Finn. They had a funeral tribute and the one guy looked at his grave stone which indicated his year of birth – this year and he explained that the “-“ in between the two dates represent your whole life. Which is sad but true looking at the line it isn’t long at all and it does get you to thinking that life is much shorter than we think and we should really appreciate what we have now at this second, time is flying and we have so much plans for weekends and holidays and specials events that we get to excited about those days and wish past the normal every day moments which normally tend to be the ones which we remember the most. Trying to stop to wish days past to get to a certa...

Cant believe its Friday again to think last week this time we were on the road shows how fast time flies. Friday morning at 2am it started, alarm went off and I couldn’t get out the bed fast enough excited for the adventure to start. Leroy and I left at 4am for our 6 hour trip which actually when you count the time we arrived there it ended up being 9 hours on the road. We finally got into Kimberly at 12:30pm went to the Groot Gat. It was really pretty to see some history things like that is what I love! The half explained how it came to where it is now and all then sadly there was a dog trapped in the hole for as they say 8 days my heart is just sad to even think that he was down there for so long, (yes I gave my dogs the warning speech hahah) We then ventured off to the lodge and was that now a mission no signal to contact people and no signs the GPS also didn’t pick up the location or address and then the heat was crazy. Finally found the place and it was beautiful. How in th...

I haven’t blogged in a while surprised I still even remember my pass word. Things have been really crazy in the last 2 months. I literally went from bored, alone and no life (that’s a reason as to why I didn’t post anything) to working late and weekends, booked for shoots, new studies and new guy in a blink of an eye all just happened. Going through the break up I didn’t think I would be where I am today. I honestly didn’t even think I would meet a guy, I could see myself being single for quite a while. And now I am happy in a new relationship. Fist I was worried I heard some people were single for 1-2 years before they moved on and here I am not even 3 months and I found someone. It wasn’t planned and I guess that’s what makes it so real and special. We chatted and all for a while and I told him that I didn’t want anything serious this year and well I actually also told him that we should only meet about next year as well. And then I thought to myself why should I sit and be ...

I can remember the day my mom was telling me about the small pigs you get and how badly she wanted one, for what reason was beyond me but as I also had my weird stage (wigs) my mother supported and so I did the same. I decided I would get my mother a tea cup pig for her birthday and so after ordering the cutest one setting the flight and all plans reading all the information we could, thinking it was a scam but going forth any way just in case it was not. That time I was still with Willem and he stayed in springs that night we went to fetch her and we weren’t sure yet what we were fetching and if we were there for a reason but we waited and in a small wooden box was our little Arabella. She was moving all over the place in that box with her on my lap in the box and my fingers through the little wire holes provided she was sucking my fingers and biting it at times. When we arrived to his house I remember reading that the pigs are shy and that we should give them space as they need to...

I know I have not posted in a while I guess I have been trying to keep my mind away from all this. It is in a way an everyday struggle, I do think of him and us a lot and I do miss what we had and all we planned but my heart I’m not sure. I’m over him and I’m not? Maybe I am just taking it as it comes and not crying over him I’m done with crying really now. He called me the weekend to explain all that happened as he is smsing me almost every day like nothing happened and its hard cause one part of me wants to be in his life as a friend but the other part can’t do that. And it was hard to even tell him that I can’t and that we should break communication as it isn’t nice getting messages from him and it just reminds me of everything again. When I heard his voice, yeah I haven’t heard it since he was here that last weekend, having him now just say Elena instead of Babe or princess hearing him explain the situation saying it wasn’t me and I’m still the amazing person and all that wasn...

On the 17 th August I was lucky enough to do a fun portrait shoot of Delene. I heard of new places around Kriel and I really wanted and needed to do a few shoots to see what there is. I am really happy with how the pictures came out and all. We stared at a building that luckily for me they have not built yet, then off to the dam the rocks there was amazing with the grass then we went to the one lost little bit left of a park and water tower. It was nice catching up and being able to take your pictures. Hope you guys like the pics that follow! J

I saw my blog and life going a total different way; I didn’t think that a few days after we were 4 months together that I would end up saying we are broken up. I never for one second saw this coming and yet still now am I trying to wrap my head and thoughts around it all. I mean he was still here last weekend and we were fine, well so I think. I don’t even know where to start or what to say. I know I wish I could turn my mind off for a bit to stop trying to think of what happened and everything. So Thursday was the second day I haven’t heard from Willem and being me I over think and I got worried I mean who wouldn’t get worried when you don’t hear anything for 2 days and neither does anyone else, I knew this wasn’t like him we were friends for a few months and still while dating he has never been this quiet, his mother told me that he is just working and very busy but I had this gut feeling that there was something else I just could not put my finger on it. It’s funny how that n...

Feels like I have not blogged in years but yet it has been a week or so. Things have been up and down I am currently sitting with the flue trying to shake it off but it doesn’t want to know anything. I am so dead tiered its crazy. Today is my daddies birthday I just want to quickly say not really sure if he read the blog I showed him of father’s day but happy birthday daddy I hope you have a good day and I thank God every day and mostly days like today where we are blessed with another year with your presence to have you in my life thank you for all you have and do for me the smallest to the biggest things I appreciate them from the bottom of my heart and even though at times I don’t understand the things you do and say and you might work on my irritation levels I still love you and wouldn’t want any other father but YOU! Willem is back in Limpopo he left on Monday, Again I was faced with having to say goodbye to Willem. It gets a touchy subject when the time gets closer and we b...

I know I have not posted anything in a while and this is actually about 2 weekends late but time got the best of me in this one but here is the weekend of the 26 th -28 July I planned So I have this surprise weekend planned for Willem, I already planned it in June when he told me the final dates that he would be on leave and would be by me so then my mind got to thinking. When we were in Durban he surprised me with 2 nights in a hotel just to get away and it was really amazing to just chill outside and talk and talk and talk about anything and everything. It helps and I say all couples need that, being with family is great and I love it but Willem and I need our time where we just talk about things and also in a sense of getting to know each other more as well. So here is what I planned, Note: That when I plan something it has to be big and full on amazing!!! I looked at guest houses either in Witbank or Middleburg I wanted to either be at a place that was close to a place whe...