Developing myself one captured moment at a time.

I saw my blog and life going a total different way; I didn’t think that a few days after we were 4 months together that I would end up saying we are broken up. I never for one second saw this coming and yet still now am I trying to wrap my head and thoughts around it all. I mean he was still here last weekend and we were fine, well so I think. I don’t even know where to start or what to say. I know I wish I could turn my mind off for a bit to stop trying to think of what happened and everything. So Thursday was the second day I haven’t heard from Willem and being me I over think and I got worried I mean who wouldn’t get worried when you don’t hear anything for 2 days and neither does anyone else, I knew this wasn’t like him we were friends for a few months and still while dating he has never been this quiet, his mother told me that he is just working and very busy but I had this gut feeling that there was something else I just could not put my finger on it. It’s funny how that n...

Feels like I have not blogged in years but yet it has been a week or so. Things have been up and down I am currently sitting with the flue trying to shake it off but it doesn’t want to know anything. I am so dead tiered its crazy. Today is my daddies birthday I just want to quickly say not really sure if he read the blog I showed him of father’s day but happy birthday daddy I hope you have a good day and I thank God every day and mostly days like today where we are blessed with another year with your presence to have you in my life thank you for all you have and do for me the smallest to the biggest things I appreciate them from the bottom of my heart and even though at times I don’t understand the things you do and say and you might work on my irritation levels I still love you and wouldn’t want any other father but YOU! Willem is back in Limpopo he left on Monday, Again I was faced with having to say goodbye to Willem. It gets a touchy subject when the time gets closer and we b...

I know I have not posted anything in a while and this is actually about 2 weekends late but time got the best of me in this one but here is the weekend of the 26 th -28 July I planned So I have this surprise weekend planned for Willem, I already planned it in June when he told me the final dates that he would be on leave and would be by me so then my mind got to thinking. When we were in Durban he surprised me with 2 nights in a hotel just to get away and it was really amazing to just chill outside and talk and talk and talk about anything and everything. It helps and I say all couples need that, being with family is great and I love it but Willem and I need our time where we just talk about things and also in a sense of getting to know each other more as well. So here is what I planned, Note: That when I plan something it has to be big and full on amazing!!! I looked at guest houses either in Witbank or Middleburg I wanted to either be at a place that was close to a place whe...

Well at least it is Thursday and tomorrow is half day Friday. As I sit here and think of things I am not sure what is going on any more or what way I need to go in anymore. Just when you think you are back and things might go good life throws you in a totally different direction in which you never thought that you would go into again. Today I got told that I was to move back to the place where I started working when I first arrived at the mine. I cannot tell you what I am thinking if it is good or what but I feel like on this mine I am a chess piece that they can move around until I am not longer needed and pushed out to another direction. Or taken out by something greater than myself and I sit on the side as I watch the rest of the game being played out without me. I am just tired of being moved around so much I want to be in a place where I get the chance to work my way up instead of work my way around. I mean in a way it is a good thing that people see my work and recommend...

Now that we have our own photo shoot coming up I am rather excited and nervous at the same time wonder if my clients ever feel this away as well? Willem at least got himself some nice clothes men really have it easy. At least I found something to wear that matches his and all that maybe it is just us woman that makes things more complicated than they need to be. Yeah that sounds about right. But any way so I was looking up some examples of what couples where and what not and I came across this other woman’s blog who also has a YouTube page and she has made a pretty good name for herself out there. And when you look at her blog and all you understand why. Her blog is: www. simplymarlena.com So as I was going through her blog I came across this post and I love it want to get this printed and placed on my wall for an everyday reminder! How to Love Yourself and Feel 100% Beautiful Hi beautiful makeup geeks! This blog post is a different one for me- a very personal message to e...

I waited so long for Sunday little did I Forget that Monday was close around the corner again. The weekend was good just chilled and counted down the days and hours and minutes to Willems arrival. Saturday I spend most of the day editing and rested by watching TV then edited again, and when I push myself I can get pretty far. I love the feeling of editing amazing pictures and the results end up looking amazing. Sunday came and time just went by slow I tried to keep myself busy but my inner self was super excited and couldn’t help but look at the clock and see that only one minute went by, The whole day I was on edge like I was expecting him to surprise me any second like he normally does yet nothing when I want him to he doesn’t hahaha, but when I got that call from him saying he will be here in 8 Minutes I was like a child who just had 7 pounds of candy and don’t know what to do with the sugar rush I have at the moment. When I saw his car drive in I was happy, he is here safe a...

What a week. I am actaully like as in emotionally tiered. First Monday morning i get a great call from Willem saying that he gets to leave work on Thursday at 12, then later on that evening they tell him his leave is going to be moved. so we had to wait until Lunch time Tuesday to hear when he will be on leave, so they told him that he will now final dat have leave from the 21 July - 6 August. So Sunday he arrives after work and how slow this week has been going i dont even want to think how slow Sunday will go for him to finally arrive the waiting and waiting hahaha not my fave part! Looks like this might be my shortest post yet! But i am sure from the weekend and all i have a few to say with further edits and to finally start my photo project! Have a great weekend every one i know i will!